To My One True Love.....

True love is the bond that won't be broken,
     no matter what the challenge
It's the bridge to our future and the door
     from our past
It's togetherness, when separation could
     always be an option
It's never giving up on each other
     and the love we want to last

True love is a commitment to keeping
      our promises; it's staying together
      because we want to
It's the ultimate satisfaction; it's the
      soul's celestial gate
Sometimes it doesn't make much sense
      and it plays by its own rules
But the heart is homesick without it
      and it's well worth the wait

When the world's rules are changing,
     true love will hold fast
It won't take for granted, and it won't
     change with the tide
It won't be discarded like some
      out-of-style fashion

When we hurt each other's feelings,
     we forgive and go on
We survive life's ups and downs, and
     we're thankful when dreams come true
I know I sound old-fashioned,
     but I don't care if I do
I guess I just love our life together because
     I'm still in love with you.

                     -Donna Fargo



People often say that your first true love is a love you never forget and its the only time you truly give yourself without holding back. What do you think? Is this true or not? In my opinion I don't think this is true. I believe that the human heart is capable of so much; especially loving with all your heart and soul more than once. We just have to let go of our fear, resentment or whatever it is that holds us back from experiencing such a blissful feeling. Is forgiveness hard? Yes. Is swallowing your pride harder? Hell yes. But love always prevails in my eyes.

May God always give me the wisdom and strength to see the good in my husband before the bad. Now a days its so tough to be an optimist at heart but may the love for my best friend prevail always......

I will love you......

As long as I can dream,
as long as I can think,
as long as I have a memory....
            I will love you.

As long as I have eyes to see
and ears to hear
and lips to speak.....
            I will love you.

As long as I have a heart to feel,
a soul stirring within me,
an imagination to hold you.....
            I will love you.

As long as there is time,
as long as there is love,
as long as there is you,
and as long as I have a breath
        to speak your name.....
         I will love you,
because I love you more
           than anything in all the world.

                      -Daniel Haughian

Sermon XII

"Benevolence is a desire to do good to others. A willingness to deny self, for the purpose of promoting the interest of your neighbor, is the very spirit of Christ, it is the heart and soul of his Gospel."


The above quote was on a sermon I read online through biblestudytools.com and when I read this verse, it really stood out for me.  Many times I have seek the goodness of myself and not of my neighbor's; and grieve, loneliness, disillusion has never failed me.  An example of this is my family.  There are times where I know my family seeks to spent time with me but I do not make an effort to reach out and be with them because of my own self interest.  Whether it be because I want to go home and cleaning or simply I have "other" things to do;  it does not justify the fact that I did not put them first before myself.  My self absorption has led me to feel alone and unhappy.  Yes my house is clean but what real value is in that?  The only one benefiting from an overly clean house is me.  


When we focus so much of our energy on material and superficial things to make us feel happy;   we often find ourselves feeling the exact opposite.  Now I understand why it is that I feel complete and beyond happy when I do an act of kindness or practice benevolence...its because the very spirit of christ is in me.  He brings me happiness and true peace when I practice his teachings.  


Lord, give me the strength to put in action you wisdom and love.  


Amen. 

New Lifestyle

While I was on vacation I started thinking about how unhealthy I have been the last three years of my life.  There is a feeling of defeat in my heart because three years ago I made the commitment to loose the freshman 15 (which was more like 40) and I did accomplish my goal.  I was at the top of my healthy zone and then I fell into the same category many women fall under after they get married....the comfort category.   After I got married I gain ALL the weight back and maybe even more.  Thanks to my bad memory I can't remember the exact weight I started out the last time; but for the first time I am making it public...as of right now I know my body is made out of 35.5% fat.  My BMI is super high, I am on the boarder line of probably being obese.  I weight 159lbs and I am only 5'1''! That is very very embarrassing.  But enough with the pity and excuses. I am 25 yrs old if I do not change my lifestyle right now that I don't have kids, I have the time and a supporting spouse then I never will.  I pledge to be at 115lbs before my 26 birthday.  Which I have PLENTY of time to do so.   Therefore I want to formally declare war on my fat! Wish me luck! The hardest part is the mental training you have to do.  Please pray for my thoughts to stay positive while I embark on this journey :)

Submissive Women?

Do you think a woman should be submissive to her husband?  The bible says for women to be submissive to their husbands.  Do you agree with this? Or do you think that women that are submissive are weak and a failure?

I used to think that being submissive meant giving up your opinion and authority but now I realize you gain more when you show submission to your husband, well if you have a good husband.  A good husband knows that a woman that submits to him, she is not doing it so that he can do whatever he pleases; but instead she is showing him that she trusts him to do the right thing for their family.  In effect, men tend to become more considerate to their wives' opinions and feelings and really do make the right decisions.  Or at least this is what has happen in my marriage since I stop trying to take my husbands role as the head of the house, and instead took the role as the heart of the house. Things have been so great since we both realize that at the end of the day, God made him a man and he made me a woman and their are certain roles God wants us to follow so that we can all live in peace and harmony with our love ones......the bible really does transform people.  That is why I rather put my faith in a holy book than in societies stigmas.  The bible is a how to book that shows you how to find understanding, love, peace, harmony, and hope in a world that makes you think that power is everything. In a world that makes you thing that when you submit to something, is  a sign of weakness and failure....I really think that that is why there is so many divorce people.  People put their faith in the wrong ideals and in return they destroy the things that they love the most.....family.

Am I still a catholic?

Recently I have really started to doubt whether I still considered myself Catholic.  I have been reading the bible with the help of a tutor and I realize that a lot of the traditions that Catholics keep, are not reinforced by the bible.  I also don't like the idea that when I go to church everything is such a routine.  I love reading the bible and actually learning how to apply it in my life and understand its content.  The sad thing is that nobody at the church has ever invited me to study it, I had to seek help outside of the church.  For now I will keep reading and learning about how great God and Jesus are! :)

What is the next step...

While I was up all night not being able sleep, (Reason: the movie The Rite with Anthony Hopkins! F-ing scary!) I started thinking about my future. Don't get me wrong, I've thought of it many other times but I haven't felt the urgency to take the next step until yesterday at 3am. I have a few ideas in mind but I don't know which one is the right one for me. Should I:

1. Get my Masters in Health Administration

2. Get my Masters in Business Administration/Marketing

3. Get my Alternative Teaching Certification and then get my Masters in Education Administration.

Theres one thing in common with all of these: Administration. :) So at least I have an idea of what I would like to do, the problem is what industry. What to do, what to do...